Tag Archive: Ventilation

The end.

There is no point in pretending any longer that I’m going to update this page.

I know I said I’d update if anything significant happened in my life, but the truth is this—things do happen and 100% of it is stuff that I have no desire to revisit through documenting anywhere.  I’ve been well and truly screwed over by people who had my trust and I’ve lost the ability to laugh, to cry or to feel any other emotion.  The desire in fact to do anything that involves emotion in any small part is long gone and the idea of having to deal with any sort of emotion, be it my own or someone else’s, greatly roils me.

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What is wine?

Ironic, I think it is; my excuse for not updating my Journal was, at some point, that nothing and only nothing was happening in my life.  In one respect my excuse still is completely valid since nothing of major interest has indeed taken place; I now sit here though feeling as if so many things have happened that I’ll never be able to remember them all to share them.

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Bugger it all.

I have decided that I am happy and that I have nothing to complain about.  One of the implications here is that I feel it necessary to block out most (or more if possible) thoughts regarding anything to do with [her].  Until I decide that enough is enough, in order to live up to what I have declared it will be necessary for me to neglect documenting anything to do with [her], since I will have supposedly terminated any germinating thoughts before they can develop to something worth noting down.

I had decided that I was happy when I wrote that, but now I really am not.  Nothing at all is going my way this week and I feel like crap again.  I am completely unsatisfied (understatement alert) with my life and everything in it.

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